Wednesday, August 31, 2016

"My Diabetes"

Serena R Pruess
August 31, 2016
CoonCat Creations

I woke up last night, like I do many nights, in a sweat and panic. I got out of bed and went into the other room, stumbling along looking for my test kit. I checked my blood sugar and sure enough, it was 55, low, again.

I used the rest of my energy to get to the kitchen, looking for something that had enough sugar in it to bring me up. I drank 1 cup of pineapple juice and ate 3 fruit rollups, and one chocolate chip cookie. I release after I eat the last fruit rollup, that I might have eaten to many carbs. Too late now. I go back to bed still feeling weak, dizzy, and in a haze. I just want to sleep.

That was at 3am.

I woke up this morning to check my blood sugar, it is 238. To high, but not as high as I expected after eating 67 carbs just to treat my low. Oh well. I eat my cereal for breakfast and take my insulin though my pump to correct the high and for my cereal. Everyday it’s like this. Food is just carbs.

A couple days ago I had to change my pump site early, once again, because getting out of my car had pulled out my pump site and I couldn’t get insulin. This was the second time in a row this happened so I broke down and started to cry. I’ve had diabetes for 20 years now. Sometimes I need to cry about it. My boyfriend tells me everything is fine, don’t cry, that’s enough. “No, you don’t understand!!” I scream. Partly because it was hurtful to hear, partly because it’s never enough. I will have this all my life. Nothing will cure me. I suffer every day, hanging between life, and death. But nobody understands.

People make jokes, a friend posts a picture of them eating a chocolate cake and in the comments about said cake, they write “This is going to give me Diabeetes.” Another friend comments, “lol” and someone else writes, “thanks for the laugh!” – They don’t understand. It’s not funny, it’s hurtful to be the one disease in the world that it is OK to make fun of. The only illness out there people use as a punchline to obese jokes. I start to write back on the post, “That’s not how you get type 1 diabetes, it’s an immune disease. It has nothing to do with cak-“ I stop. I delete the message. What’s the point? Having this conversation over and over again with people. But it never ends.

I sit here in silence, hurting, but nobody cares. They see diabetes only when I poke my finger to check my blood sugar, when I take insulin for that slice of pizza I ate. Then it goes back to being invisible. But not for me. I am diabetic when I woke up, go to bed, brush my teeth, change my clothes. It is the one thing on my mind every minute of the day. But they don’t see it. Just there for a laugh while I am fighting to survive another day.

Tuesday, August 30, 2016

Scrapbook Pages (last weekend)

I made three new pages to show what my weekend was about!

I want to make many pages and journals and art about my family and I to show the future generations our family history!

Thanks for looking!

August 28-30 bullet journal

The last couple days in my bullet journal!

Friday, August 26, 2016

"Ugly?" The Zine

New release, a sequel to Fishspit and I's first collab zine, "Cute!".

Horror stories, art, poems, and a whole lot of crazy!
Get a copy now in my shop for $3!


Thursday, August 25, 2016

August 22-23, 2015 Bullet Journal

Here are a couple days in my Bullet Journal. I thought I'd share with you all. :)

Big Falls was over flooded, but still beautiful.


Sunday, August 21, 2016

Opalite (my Espeon)

My favorite Pokemon I have in X.

Crappy lighting on crappy lined paper haha.

Wednesday, August 17, 2016

Drawing Mickey Mouse on 3DS

They released a free demo of Disney art academy so I thought I'd give it a try just for fun.

Here is my finished Mickey Mouse drawing.

Short and to the point lesson. Haha.

Monday, August 15, 2016

"Love Letter To The Sea" Poem

Found word poem made from a page in the book The Loop by Nickolas Evans.

I might paint the edges of the page yet. Not sure. If I do I'll update this post.

Sunday, August 14, 2016

Thursday, August 11, 2016

Bulbasaur and Gatomon

Bulbasaur has been taking over my thoughts recently. Haha

And Gatomon has always been one of my favorite characters of all time. (From Digimon)

So yeah. There you go haha.
I might turn this into a button. :)

Tuesday, August 9, 2016

New Scrapbook Pages

I was looking at old photos yesterday and it inspired me this morning to make some new scrapbook pages.

First some pictures from F2 last year.

Then I did one of old pictures of me and my siblings.

And I did one of Ruby and Moonbeam.

I really miss my dog.
-Serena Pruess

Amazing Bear Photography

I got some awesome bear pictures today at Irvine Park, WI.

To bad the glass was so dirty. But I really enjoyed this anyways!

-Serena Pruess

Thursday, August 4, 2016

Caterina Drawing

Wanted to draw my girl Cat.


Gem Cat Buttons!

Garnet,Peridot, and Lapis cat buttons!
For sale soon!
-Serena Aika Pruess

FM Contest 2015 - Finished Entree

Here is the finished artwork that will be in the program guide at Furry Migrations this year!

You can see the original artwork I entered into the contest here: CLICK

-Serena Aika Pruess